Thursday, February 01, 2007

Why?

The first part* of my answer to the question, "Why do you believe what you do?" has to do with the nature and experience of belief, and why I believe anything at all. It is not an answer limited to Christian belief.

This first reason was stated eloquently and succinctly by St. Augustine in his Confessions:

"You have made us for yourself, O Lord, and our hearts are restless until they rest in you."

I believe that because in my observation and experience, it is true.

We are all seeking relationship with and connection to whatever is beyond ourselves. I don't discriminate among religious traditions in making that argument, and I don't overlook those who are hostile to religious faith or indifferent to it. It is empirically obvious to me that we are all looking to ground ourselves in a sense of being or entity beyond us.

I am deeply engaged with the life of my religious community, a mainline Protestant church, but most of my family and friends are not so inclined, so I have some sense whereof I speak.

When people express tremendous resentment and anger with respect to the concept of God, when people tell me that God has been absent to them for longer than they can remember, when people recall childhood Sunday School teachers and nuns and First Communions with sarcasm or hostility, when people argue that religion stands firmly behind most of the destruction and horror that human beings have wreaked upon one another in this world, when people say that they might be religious but for the fact that "Christians" (feel free to insert the name of another tradition) refuse to honor them as gay or lesbian individuals ~ what I hear are people longing to rest in the presence of God, and angry and hurt and resentful that they cannot find a way to do so.

When people tell me, "I just don't know," or "I just don't have a religious bone in my body" or "The whole religious enterprise is ludricous and of human origin," what I hear is a longing to be wrong, a longing to be in touch with that dimension of human existence that does not depend upon entirely upon the rational or scientific.

I hope I don't sound condescending. I certainly don't mean to. I don't for one minute doubt that wise and thoughtful people can find grounds for disagreement with me. I don't intend to reinterpret for capable people what they are able to analyze and understand for and about themselves. But the question asked of me was why I believe what I do, and part of the answer is the spiritual reality I see in human nature as clearly as I see that we are designed to love and desire one another, to procreate, and to care for one another. I see it as clearly as I see that there are jellyfish in the sea and foxes in the cemetery where I walk. I see it because it is right in front of me.

I do not say any of this in a strident or defensive tone of voice. I say it confidently, but mildly. I am not perturbed by disagreement on this matter. I simply see that we are made with an interior space for relationship to something beyond ourselves.

*(I think there are five parts. I guess we'll find out.)

7 comments:

Paul said...

"what I hear are people longing to rest in the presence of God, and angry and hurt and resentful that they cannot find a way to do so"

Great post, but I fear you are suffering from wishful hearing.

"I am not perturbed by disagreement on this matter"

You mean I'll have to find some other way to perturb you?

Gannet Girl said...

I don't think there's much hope, Paul. The things that perturb me are more in the line of self-righteous arrogance, something you are sadly lacking.

Songbird said...

I hear that same subtext in my husband's atheism, gg. he's much more a seeker than most religious people I know.

Anonymous said...

You put in words the thoughts I have about belief perfectly. I loved the quote by St. Augustine. I promptly scribbled it in my quote book.
Leenora

lisa c. said...

Hmmm. I think I'm going to have to agree with Paul on this one. I don't feel like I'm angry or hurt or resentful. I am comfortable in the idea that there is something/someone out there greater than all of us, but I don't dwell on it or yearn for more understanding.

As always, a thoughtful post, Robin.

steve said...

I enjoyed reading this. I love the acceptance and gentleness in your thinking on this topic. Thanks for sharing this post.

Kathryn said...

"people argue that religion stands firmly behind most of the destruction and horror that human beings have wreaked upon one another in this world,"

These people need to understand that it is humans who are behind the destruction and horror. They often invoked religion but religion (an impersonal noun not a proper name) didn't do it.

Of course, religion is a construct of humans. Religion is a framework within which and from which one can explore his or her relationship with the universe - all of it - whether you fervently believe in a higher being or struggling with faith.

It's the humans involved that cause the problems. The worst of human nature comes out in power struggles and other difficulties inherent in interpersonal relationships. My involvement with environmental groups which also include a heathy dose of confict, as well as "holier than thou", made me relax about the institutional problems of any church.