Sunday, December 11, 2005

Tables Turning

I sent this photo to some friends today and one of them responded that I looked "ready for anything." Let's hope that that's the case.
At this particular moment, I'm listening live to the Christmas Vespers concert from my boarding school in western Massachusetts. My son made it home from Chicago tonight and, as I waited for his flight to arrive, I reflected on how things have changed. If I were a teenager in the Connecticut Valley, I would be in a candle-lit chapel participating in a concert of haunting beauty and anticipating my own flight home. But now when I go to the airport at holiday time, it's to pick up and drop off -- my own Christmas traveling days are long behind me.
For the last couple of years I could deny it, but this year I can't: all three children have gone and we are the ones at home, anticicpating their return. It's an odd feeling. They all have lives, activities, friends, far from us. We've never met either of our sons' most important girlfriends of the past couple of years. When they come back, they spend some time with their best friends of those Montessori years past, the closely knit group that numbered only 15 by the time they graduated from eighth grade and headed for six or seven different high schools, and then they are eager to return to the lives they have created as young adults.
I found myself thinking tonight that maybe we should have had the tree decorated and waiting for them. It's always been a family tradition that the five of us choose the tree together, with much squabbling over height and width, and then decorate it over the course of a week. But Christmas will be only a week away by the time the lovely daughter returns -- maybe it's time to revamp that tradition and create a festive atmosphere to welcome them home.
The truth is, I'm not ready for anything. I'd like to turn the clock back at least a few years.

9 comments:

rachael said...

interesting...makes me think a little more about how my parents might be feeling.

Anonymous said...

Hhhhhmmm . . . interesting entry . . . IN YOUR NEW HOME. I hope this works out well for you.

I hope you have a wonderful Christmas with your family all around you!
Cyndygee

V said...

aww, these are the hard times, but you must be so proud.
V

Paul said...

You are a pretty lady.

Celeste said...

Hi! What a pretty lady you are! Thank you so much for stopping in. My kiddies are little yet, but time is flying by way too fast for me too. It really does seem like just yesterday... ;) C.

tess said...

Nice to meet you!
This will be the first Christmas celebration that I won't be able to assist my Mom with her party for her family. The distant and circumstances are too far and wide!
I'm happy that you get them all home.

Judith HeartSong said...

you are beautiful inside and outside and everywhere in between.
judi

Lisa C. said...

OK, I can't seem to post for some reason, but I will try again...

Lovely photo! It's nice to finally "see" you after all these years. It's sad how quickly our children grow up, isn't it? I always think the "stages" -- trick or treating, believing in Santa, holding Mommy's hand -- will last forever. But I know in an instant, they'll be gone.

Anne/Ksquester said...

ahhhhhhh, To everything there is a season!