Thursday, September 25, 2008

Starting Again

This morning I thought that maybe I would try to start to pray again.

It seems such an improbable task, one requiring such courage, to seek Presence in the vast emptiness that lies endlessly and silently before me.

What came from today's music and text
here was too raw to process here.

The wind goes round and round.

19 comments:

RevDrKate said...

And until the day comes...we remain praying for, with, around you....(((gg)))

Katherine E. said...

Your insight that it takes courage to really pray is one that will stay with me for quite a while, GG. May those moments when you feel an impulse to pray increase... {{{gg}}}

LawAndGospel said...

Indeed as I listened to it, I cried for you, for that wind going round and round and the streams that can never fill the sea. How sad if this was the only word we had. How hard when it feels like it is. I remain praying for you.

Kathryn J said...

I was wondering how prayer was going for you and am sorry to learn not at all. I really like Dr. Kate's image of "praying for, with, and around you". I am.

mompriest said...

Sometimes all I can do is say, God, here I am...and then give myself over...to silence....to screams....to tears....to God...and in that giving myself over I offer the only prayer I have in me.

Althea N. Agape said...

I continue to pray for you

Deb said...

Wow. You know, I went and listened to it again... PAYG is one of my favorites... Wanted you to know that I prayed for you in it.
(gg)

peace
Deb

Michelle said...

I offered up all of yesterday's fear for you...

And also my prayers for you, in your stead, everywhere surrounding you..

Quotidian Grace said...

Truly, we do not know how to pray as we ought. And the Spirit intercedes for us. With sighs too deep for words.

Bathing you in prayer,
QG

Anonymous said...

I like Annie LaMott's prayer of "please" or "help" (if I remember Traveling Mercies correctly. Sometimes, all I can pray is "please". I can pray that for you and around you. alexandra

Stushie said...

I don't have the right words to offer a pertinent prayer, but I listen to Mary Gauthier's CD "Mercy Me" when I'm emotionally numb.

She has a website at www.marygauthier.com

Stushie said...

Sorry, the CD is called "Mercy Now." Late night blogging makes me dopey.

Mary Beth said...

Lifting you up in prayer. We will pray in your stead until/if you are ready to pray again.

In my mind's eye, I see you surrounded in God's perfect light (though I'm sure it doesn't feel that way).

"PS" (a.k.a. purple) said...

Good for you for not trying to "make it work". One of my friends is Quaker and her phrase is, "I'll hold you in the Light"...so that is what I am doing.

Kathryn J said...

Round and round. Some of my favorite metaphors have to do with circles and slipstreams (Van Morrison in heavy rotation in my car just now). GG, I am thinking of you, and although praying with you is clearly not appropriate - I really like the expression "holding you in the light". For me it is dim right now but present, which allows me to pray. I am also sending much love to your whole family.

Ellen...now said...

Just whisper His name...that will be prayer enough. He knows your heart.

Anonymous said...

This is, most likely, rude (but not meant to be). But still-- you have shared so much with people, people who have never met you, but who now "know" you much more deeply than we "know" many people we interact with every day. So, someday...could you tell us...how did he come to die?

Gannet Girl said...

My blog is not Oprah.

Stratoz said...

I came to tell you that I too have been away from prayer, but hoped to go do some right now. read the recent comments and my heart sank.

no matter how long it has been, I tend to start by breathing as I say, "Here, I am."